Opening up my eyes to get up earlier than dawn was one thing I did throughout Christmas morning. The nostalgia of operating down the steps to obtain my presents is a sense I’ll always remember! Nevertheless, it’s a feeling that I misplaced and will be unable to really feel once more. I’m a convert to Islam. I’m positive many Muslims around the globe really feel the identical pleasure on Eid morning, as I did on Christmas a few years in the past. Now, all main holidays are onerous for me. The Christian holidays like Christmas and Easter, I rejoice them with my household to respect them however I don’t really feel the religious pleasure of it anymore. And the Muslim ones, I’ve had no household or pals to rejoice them with, up till final yr once I obtained married. Thankfully, now I have fun them with my husband and my in-legal guidelines. I nonetheless should not have my mother and father, siblings, or different relations celebrating my new vacation with me — and who is aware of in the event that they ever will.
The town I simply left, after dwelling there for four.5 years, I used to be there the entire time with out celebrating one Muslim vacation and even going to a mosque. There was no mosque however there have been some Muslims, whom I knew. It required me to get married and transfer a couple of states away to be able to rejoice an Eid. Nevertheless it shouldn’t have taken that lengthy!
Final Eid-Al-Adha 2015, was the primary Eid I’ve ever celebrated, I’ve been a Muslim for two years at the moment. My Turkish in-regulation aunt was so candy to me final yr and she or he needed me to really feel essential and beloved. She invited many converts in addition to me from the group as properly and had the Eid-Al-Adha dinner in honor of me. I by no means felt like that on a vacation earlier than. She is among the sweetest and most beneficiant lady I’ve met. I used to be and I’m very fortunate to have the in-legal guidelines and husband that I’ve as a convert.
I need to emphasize once more that it shouldn’t haven taken that lengthy nor ought to it take that lengthy for any convert to take pleasure in an Eid. We converts shouldn’t have to attend to get married with a purpose to take pleasure in Eid.
A fellow convert stated to me: “Eid is likely one of the most miserable days for me. It jogs my memory of how really alone I’m. It jogs my memory that each one we actually have is Allah. It’s like some other day at house however inside it’s necessary to me. I’m going residence and cry myself to sleep as a result of I can’t take the truth of how alone I actually am. Nobody likes to be alone.” Once I hear issues like this it breaks my coronary heart. I do know my convert pals and different converts really feel the identical method they usually really feel alone.
I haven’t been in a Muslim group however there have been nonetheless Muslims round and nobody needed to have fun with me or would invite me. Sadly, I nonetheless see the identical factor the place converts are celebrating Eid alone or by no means. Nobody ought to should rejoice Eid alone.
My good friend goes on by saying, “Inside my coronary heart I yearn to make my very own little household that I can rejoice Eid with.” I really feel the identical approach when I’ve youngsters. I feel that giddy feeling I obtained on Christmas would be the similar feeling I obtained throughout Christmas as a toddler.
Many born Muslims have a robust household presence and most of us converts lose all that once we convert. Might you think about to haven’t any household throughout Ramadan or Eid? Fasting would have virtually no which means. It isn’t the identical when you’re alone. So born Muslims and even fellow converts like me ought to attempt to attain out to converts and invite them to our Eid dinners.
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